I don't really know what I'm supposed to write here. I have never kept a journal before. Some of you may be thinking heck he doesn't shut up why cant he just write instead of talking.
I guess I should be starting with why I'm doing the UBBT. I'm doing it so that I have a plan on how I'm going to change over the year.... hopefully for the best. I'm doing it so parents at the school can see what I'm up to IE not just prepping classes but actually using martial arts to make my life better. Its the plan for parents to then say hey look at Coach Campbell he has a black belt mentality, talks the talk and walks the walk. In turn encouraging the kids and developing them into better athletes and people.
I still need to decide what my test will include. The basics I posted to the Facebook page is not everything. I will find some of it hard to complete. Doing a journal once a week I will struggle with and truthfully mending three relationships (mandatory task) is going to be the hardest. I only have three people I need to mend relationships with and as much as I wouldn't see these people hurting I still don't want anything to do with them or have them ever come near the dojo again. Which means in essence I don't really forgive them?? or particularly want their forgiveness/ friendship. I still have to work that out.
I have started reading more. I posted a series of reading lists but I believe the list is given to us which helps lol. I need to start reading again.
The test is about me pushing myself and setting goals and letting you guys know what I'm doing so that I cant back out. I got a call today from COBRA head office asking if I am able to go to Florida in May for my black belt test which I said yes.
Anyway, as I said I don't know what to write. I'm doing this because I have to, for a number of reasons, not because I want to. As Tom says though it wouldn't be a test if it was easy. I think it will get easier and as more happens throughout the test Ill have more to share.
